It’s been almost two years since we have seen each other. It’s time for some closure. It’s been 1 year, 8 months and some change in fact. All I ever wanted to know was if you were happy, if you were OK. Screw being happy, I wanted to know that you were OK. Happiness is an emotion and all emotions are temporary. I know I say that all the time, but its true.
I don’t know why, but after a million failed attempts to contact you I still missed you. I hate that it took me so long to realize that you were the best friend I ever had, and possibly ever will have. When you finally answered back that you were doing great, I was in shock, obviously. I didn’t expect to hear from you again after that, and as you know I didn’t.
Out of everything that I lost, you were the hardest to let go of. Sometimes I think that you wouldn’t even recognize me, however I think you saw this guy long before I could imagined him to be possible. You believed in something that I just could not see.
Now there is someone that has the best of me. Someone I let in, although that’s something I never planned on. I never wanted to give someone else the opportunity to hurt me and now I have. I love him. It means I’m moving forward, and I’m starting to forget. I never want to forget you, but forgetting how it felt to loose you has been beneficial.
Love Always, DD